About Me
I’m a healing writer seeking to help others understand trauma and trauma recovery alongside my own recovery. While I have experienced many traumatic things in my life, I did not get help until last year. I am in my 30s. I feel like I have lost most of my life to this condition. I am reclaiming myself before it takes any more of me.
In my substack, you will find creative nonfiction and psychological fiction as well as the occasional blog-style post. Many of these will be short stories from my perspective, trying to give an intimate view of life with mental health disorders like complex PTSD, dissociative disorders, depression, and anxiety.
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About My Dreams
All of my fiction posted here is based on my dreams. I have always had highly unusual, complex dreams. This is almost definitely because I likely have had complex PTSD from early childhood. It has always been a part of me, and that influences how I dream.
My dreams are more like movies, and sometimes they are episodic. They have plots and detailed worlds with histories and cultures of their own. I am never myself in my dreams. I embody someone else entirely—someone with a background, personality, appearance, age, and gender not like my own. For the dream, I become this person.
I also remember my dreams. They do not fade, and I can recall them like memories. I have remembered some dreams for decades.
My dreams are important to me. They often feel like it’s a less conscious way for me to process trauma, and at times, it feels like a way different parts of me communicate.
So when you read my fiction, keep in mind that it isn’t just a story. It’s my mind speaking in a different voice, trying to understand what happened to me.
Content Warnings
Given the sensitivity of certain mental health topics, content warnings will be provided at the start of blog posts and dreams as necessary.
Note: I am not a mental health expert. I am simply telling my lived experiences with trauma and related mental health diagnoses.
